Inner Turmoil

The thing I love about inner turmoil is that I usually wake up quite early (because I can't sleep) and see a side of morning that I usually miss because I go to bed too late. I also will often go into work early and it is wonderfully quiet here when no one is around. So despite the knot in the pit of my stomach, I'm driving to work, enjoying the low light of morning and the relative lack of cars on the highway and generally feeling peaceful and grateful to be alive. Funny how a knotted stomach can coexist with such positive feelings -- if I'm lucky, it's a sign of maturity and a more balanced view of the world and of life. If I'm not, then it probably means I'm going crazy.